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starting to get my days muddled, sleep in later than i should, skip things, not use my free time productively

this ends tomorrow



i dreamed that i was moving to my mother's place, being so glad to be able to escape the clutter of my room and put my mind in one place and focus, but when i tried to pack my toiletries there was a worm on my bag and when i tried to flick it away it was stuck, and suddenly worms started appearing on everything on my toothbrush my makeup my room floor my own skin and i couldn't get rid of them at all. if i removed one end it would stuck by the other.

in another dream there was an argument. i don't remember the cause of it but my house was in a state of chaos, everyone was shouting, running in and out of my room, and there was a command by my mother to move every object in my room to the next, and people were just coming in and grabbing random objects by armfuls and running out, and i yelled at her because that was the only way i could be heard amidst the chaos, why the fuck are you touching my things at a time like this i won't be able to find anything i won't be able to study. and she yelled back, but i can't remember what. there was so much anger.

anguish.