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this weekend was: teh and milo dino at gardens, going "what the fuck" out loud at my phone, swinging on a park swing until i felt like i could fly right off (while shalom shouted I JUST HAD SEX,) having a smoke by the wind chimes/roof, listening to noah and the whale in the dark on shalom's balcony while she thought i was asleep.

i haven't had solid sleep in a long time. always drifting in and out like my body can't decide where it wants to be.

walking through the park back home in the morning, math tuition, more drifting in and out of sleep, shopping at uniqlo (never want to wear any other bra ever again,) mussels and onion soup with cheese dumpling and sausage platter and veal and BEER at brotzeit, shopping for candles and miscellaneous home organization things at ikea, brave, riding on the back of a bike for the first time ever, cigarettes and conversation by the road side, sleeeeep

this is why i do badly in school


and i thought be still my heart