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this is my lunch for today because there is no other food in my house. it looks like fucking GRUEL.

I FEEL LIKE A CHARACTER IN WUTHERING HEIGHTS.

speaking of which i had a consultation today which was basically an accusation of being discourteous by not informing that i would not be attending a lecture that is optional, being railed at for twenty minutes for not paying attention for the past two years and writing an essay full of absolute rubbish, instead of _ (i'm not sure what was supposed to be in its place, since i was never taught,) being summoned for another consult tomorrow morning at 6.45a.m., and then being made to write an essay timed.

i guess the writing part was okay, but throughout most of the time spent ranting i could feel my insides beginning to simmer

i dunno, maybe if the approach was effective i wouldn't be so angry. but all i heard was wrong wrong wrong wrong wrong and i got so annoyed by how "the past two years" were being harped on when the very point of us being there was to move forward. but no let's just focus on everything that's wrong now

oh well i guess i'm on my own then

also, i took a half an hour nap today. discipline lvl 99